The title means “rope harness”.

Just before we moved into our own apartment, my ex-fiance and I did a little rope bondage, as I was feeling a little forlorn that he had shared something so intimate with a girl he hardly knew in Seattle (and the bitch had been naked too, grrrr….., though it hadn’t been sexual in nature, just practice for him with tying knots and such), but he had never done anything regarding rope with me. And I had gone to a lot of trouble of getting into the rope community here in my own city just because he was getting into it in Seattle. So understandably, I was a little upset.

So one day, he decided to try his hand at creating a rope harness around my body using only his memory of what he had learned in Seattle (and from books I had bought from the sex store I worked at and sent him as presents). The following was the result:



It was very intimate, having him wrap the rope around me and tie me up. Extremely erotic. I loved it. And I loved the harness itself. I found, and still find it, beautiful.

And afterwards, we had absolutely AMAZING sex with me still in the harness. He would pull on it to pull me closer, to just move me around and control me, and it was glorious. I definitely reached subspace that day. And the rope was so soft and supplicating against my skin. We used the Japanese Silk Bondage Rope from the Fetish Fantasy Series by the company Pipedream.

He can be an amazing lover when he wants to be, it’s just that with my sex issues and us rarely having sex, the sex between us had become so mundane and honestly kind of boring. There was no spark, no passion, no…love. Or at least it didn’t feel like there was any love… 😦 And it made me very very sad. That probably explains why I was having trouble orgasming during sex with him. But that’s a topic for another day. This post was just to showcase the beauty of my harness.

Even if it makes my heart ache a little.


Menage Without Having a Third Party

So given that I just wrote about anal sex, I thought I would talk about MY experiences with it. Lol. This is actually a product review, by the way.

The product I’m going to be reviewing is the Sportsheets Menage a Trois Double Penetration Harness and Dildo Set.


Now, my ex-fiance is VERY well-endowed, as I might have mentioned before, and there was NO way we were going to use this product as pictured on the box. So we improvised and turned it around, so that the dildo would be the thing penetrating my anus and his beautiful penis would be the thing entering my woman sheath.

Now, that dildo that comes with it is a little big to start off with, so I had bought a set of butt plugs that gradually increased in size to open the anal cavity up so that a penis could enter it without (much) pain. And the beginner plug from that set was a bit smaller than the dildo from the one pictured above, so we started out playing around with that one and getting me used to it. Once we did that, we moved on to the harness. Except, well, that dildo was STILL too big… So we took the dildo out of the Sportsheets New Comers Strap-On & Silicone Dildo Set for Pegging that I had gotten for free from a training session, and used THAT. Lol. And THAT worked PERFECTLY.

My ex-fiance said that harness kinda bothered him in that he just didn’t like the feel of it on him, I guess, and we also didn’t put the cockring pictured above around his balls because there was just NO WAY that was happening without putting him in some MAJOR pain. So it only went around the base of his penis.

I, on the other hand, LOVE THIS PRODUCT. OMG, IT’S AMAZING. There is NOTHING like being stimulated vaginally, clitorally, and anally. It’s like heaven on earth. It’s over powering and consumes you with a pleasure beyond imagination. It’s intense. INTENSE!

We didn’t use it much in later years because he just didn’t seem interested and I didn’t want to make him uncomfortable if he didn’t want to use it, so I just never brought it up or asked about it or asked to use it. Sigh.

But seriously, this is an AMAZING product. I can’t tell you just how many of these I sold to couples once I had one myself. I would sell us out of stock and beg to get more in. It’s just that great. Definitely gets the Mandy stamp of approval!

P.S.- Due to certain events that occurred recently between Eric and I, I will be getting a nice long session of him using this on me in the near future, so this girl is TOTALLY STOKED AND EXCITED!!! *squee*

B(logging) U(nder the) I(nfluence) (of Subspace)

I just had another subspace moment, where I was just so overwhelmed by sensations that I just spiraled into a world of bliss and peace and space-y-ness and being out of it and floating and just riding a wave of pleasure into oblivion. It really was “la petite morte”. Mmmm….. So good.

There’s just something about making love and having your partner make love to you that just makes me feel so complete. I know I’ve written that before, but being engulfed in pleasure that your partner is the cause of is…euphoric… It’s like an experience that can’t be described in words. It’s just too intense and too sacred and too beautiful and intimate to be done justice by putting it into words.

I feel like a puddle of pure ecstasy and calm and balance. I feel like all is right with the world and that I can’t be bothered by any of my troubles. My whole body is tingling and I’m just bathing in the aftermath of extremely good sex. Though it was like more than just “sex” and more akin to our souls uniting and dancing together.

I just wanted to make a note that since starting this blog and endeavoring to try to find my sexuality again, our sex life has only become better and better. Tonight was the best sex we’ve ever had, and I hope I can continue to say that for a long while about each and every time we come together to make love.

I’m going to go bask in the afterglow and snuggle with the amazing man who just did this to me. I am so blessed to have such an attentive and devoted and caring and tender lover who enjoys pleasing me almost as much, if not actually even more, than he enjoys getting pleased himself.

I’m a luck gal. 😉

And a sensations slut.


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I have very little experience with it, and what little I believe I do have has mostly been while whacked out on meds, but I believe I went into “subspace” the other night during sex with my boyfriend.

“Subspace” is usually a BDSM term that refers to the “out of body experience” submissives experience during a “scene” that comes about after intense levels of “sensation/stimulation” (usually in the form of pain). My subspace was induced from just intense stimulation that was mostly pleasure, only a little pain, which I would classify more as a bit of “roughness”.

During my subspace experience the other night, I felt my whole body tingling and I was just existing in pure bliss and mindless and I was perfectly at peace with everything in the Universe. I felt euphoria, like I was floating. I was just overwhelmed by sensations, being the “sensation whore” that I am (hehe), and I let them take me on a ride into a wave of pleasure and inner peace and balance and connection to him that I’ve never felt before.

And that’s part of what I love most about sex: connecting with him. It’s like we’re one entity when we make love. He strikes something at the very core of me, of my soul, and bring me to a place of freedom and joy and love and light and perfection. When we’re together as one, I feel complete and whole. It’s euphoric.

I hope to continue to be able to enter subspace with him and to deepen our connection more intensely and intimately than ever before with my new-found sexiness/aka med-induced sexiness that I hope becomes my own new-found sexiness on a regular basis.